Today I realized a few things.
The bull when it is pushed into the arena, there is thrown in the midst of all, to entertain . None
helps the bull, we all watch and cheer as he turns and kicks in the throes of his fury, his nerves, well aware that it did not escape, and all rejoice and take pleasure in his situation, while he is drunk ignorant instability.
Today I saw a dog limping, and I chased after it mistakenly thought they had invested, and recall it when he threw himself between the cars, and I took the insults of motorists who thought it was my dog. I was running after him, but he did nothing, even on the lame man gave me to eat dust.
Until then we did not find with my friend Sara, gardens, and do not know why I wanted to help him. Of
curargli leg and alleviate any suffering.
While concern for the umpteenth time the tasks of a recent PhD in physics in Turin and for the umpteenth time I found a line of reasoning evident in the choice of tests, I realized a great truth. I'll never be able to play in a meaningful way one of those tasks, the more so without having exact knowledge programs within its limits. My attempt to prepare it thus reduces to a general review of the general concepts of physics, and a random study of issues related to applications, which, on a 5-year program, is to do nothing and hope for the best. But the point is this: to participate in a contest by "external" means going to "guess" what a program can be done, knowing that there are substantial differences in the performance of a program, only in respect of such diversity between a teacher and each other.
Therefore I will never be able to pass a similar task, which I do not know their programs, for the simple reason that there is a coopartecipazione to:
1) inadequacy on my part, I do not care or to undergo HYPOCRITICAL examination in which no preparation is subjected to analysis, but the contextualization of the preparation, you do an example: wearing that suit on April 26th of 2006? None of you remember what you wore that day, but I do: I was wearing the dress because it is the day of my graduation, then it means that I have more memory of you and are more prepared than you? no, it simply means that the application is for a context in which to me is easier to move. This is the kind of questions encountered in the doctoral examinations in Turin: the questions that only if you had the chance to deepen in some contexts (in physics classes in Turin, or by accident) you are able to respond.
applied a healthy realism (not to be confused with pessimism), and found that I can never pass a similar task if not for luck, I decided to revise the basic physics issues and prepare for PhD in Cagliari, on the other ones wonderful people who are my speakers I have guaranteed that they will do anything to give me an offer training worthy of his name, and I can do is trust, because they have always shown people in my gold comparisons. In my head is concretized the idea of \u200b\u200bgetting ready for serious competition to support PhD in Cagliari, and really give my best to succeed in this project very dear to me.
Turin is a beautiful dream but it is accompanied by many hardships, and I can not take any more of discomfort, of feeling alone, waiting for some good and instead go wrong, to pretend that things are good when they go on for inertia , and I'm sick of hypocrisy and duplicity.
not for me, I do not have the strength to continue this way.
When a person no longer has the strength and assigns, may find itself energy and new incentives if it is supported by some, but I'm pretty alone are enough left to chance.
They are like the bull that every time he sees "red" charge, and finds himself stuck in a banderilla back.
'm like a lame dog that wanders and comes and goes in search of his hands, he threw himself between the cars, rides his back and he does not know where to go, and waits for someone to say something or give some advice.
What I do not know if I do not think that will come.
"Like an animal in time to die I'll settle for a place to stay"
Dreams and Symptoms - CSI
"They are not structured to be able to sustain for a long time"
Blue - CSI
"Despite any decision or vote against strenuous
I am embarrassed, surprised, hurt, anger for feeling
worsening
which I know I speak or ask questions "
Irata - CSI
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